don't go. i could eat you up i love you so.

is not good day. boo.

i wish there were curls in my hair

and 48 hours in a day.

this airplane is a ribbon

so tired lah. i can't wait for the weekend. but it's only tuesday. and first day of school for the week since yesterday was a holiday. tomorrow's wednesday. then there's thursday. and then friday. and then wheeee weekend!

i need to make schedules two weeks in advance. i feel so unprepared for stuff. i don't think this year started off well for me. too many things which i could have done that i didn't do because i came back so late. like literally the day before school started. which means i should not do that anymore. because jetlag sucks. and not having notebooks for classes on your first day is just weird. and having to unpack over the course of two weeks is annoying. i will come back to school earlier next year. this is what i say now. what i do in a year will probably be the exact opposite of what i say now and exactly the same as what i did for this year. hohoho.

anyhoo garry winogrand is my hero. his pictures are. captivating. i had to pause for a while to think of the word to describe his pictures. apparently he takes pictures for fun. because he wants to see what a scene will look like in pictures. he takes pictures of what he thinks will look nice in print. and there is no deeper meaning to it than that. it probably sounds weird but i think i shoot with the same idea in mind. but i guess i try to find more interesting content. whereas his are the everyday kinda scenes when walking down a street. in a much nicer way. much much more beautiful. anyways. somehow, his pictures just really strike me. hard to explain. i guess his pictures are all punctums for me.

i really like the picture above. so many reasons why and i won't list them because i've listed them once. although i don't learn a whole lot of things in my photography class - it's mainly hands on experience, i've become much more analytical when it comes to looking at pictures and not just merely glancing at them and seeing if the content of the picture is pretty or not.

i just realized that in all of wingrand's pictures that i stole from the internet, they are all of women. he doesn't just take pictures of women. just so happens that the ones i chose are of women. he takes pictures of people. basically he just chooses a corner and stands on the manhattan sidewalk the whole day and clicks away. none of his pictures are staged - which means they are all spontaneous pictures. and yet they are so fascinating somehow. enchanting.

i keep wanting to photograph this:
and i've seen a drunken poet
spilling verses on the bar
i wished i remembered them so beautiful and so dark

okay study time kthxbai!

who holds the stars up in the sky?

i thought i would like to make a sunset/sunrise/anything pertaining to the sun photography project. i finished writing the paper. but i realized that i was thinking that only because the colours of scattered sunlight are pretty.

then i thought i wanted to take pictures capturing the joy in people's faces. but so cliche. everyone wants to do that.

then i thought of nature-y stuff. but i thought of it only because i enjoy being surrounded by nature but i don't think i would like taking pictures of it.

i think i would like taking pictures of random things. but i don't know how to collect my thoughts together and phrase them. i don't even know what sort of random things. maybe if i just list potential random things i would like to photograph then i will find some kind of link. yay. haih.

maomaomao

is raining. quite gloomy. but i must say it fits my mood right now. quite sapped of energy to be happy clappy.

i haven't had more than 5 hours of sleep a night the whole week.

i had 12 hours last night. but i still feel really tired.

anyhoo. i wish so many things. things that i cannot control.

as much as i hate appearing vulnerable, i hate being tough more. being able to cope with everything.

call me a baby. call me whiny.

i need a break.

gylio

29th september 2009.

the worst day of my life.

ever.

but you know what?

i just have to suck it up.

yes.

:'(

procrastination much

pretty decal on our wall!

most awesome roommate ever!

cutesy people making kuih ketayap!

lovely people who bring colour into my life!